Fabio

I kept trying to repaint you even when I saw your true colours 

And they just kept seeping through the canvas the more I tried. 

She's probably in bed with you now believing your story,

'Cause you're too much of a coward trying to hide 

Behind pride and its a shame

Because deep down we know, you're not into her

And what we had would've been better to keep

But keep telling her she's the best thing that's happened to you if that's what helps you at night to sleep.

If this is what you really want, who am I to disagree 

I just hope Karma, when she strikes, goes a little easy

It's obvious you're lost inside yourself, inside your life

And I only tried to comfort you

Cheer you up, not be your wifey

I just hope when she does the same, you don't take advantage of her heart 

But it may be better for the both of you to let her know from the start

That your intentions are no good and once you're bored, that's it, you're done

'Cause cooking your dinner in diamond oil does not make her the one. 

I prayed to God to keep bitterness from my heart and the Lord, He pulled through 

'Cause he took away all the hate and upset that I had towards you 

And now all I have is pity, because you are a broken man

And when you're done messing with her and even more hurt is on your hands

You'll look back at the hearts you broke and realize its true

We pray your daughter never comes across a man like you...

My 18 Year Old Self

If I could tell my 18 year old self,
Stay beautiful not knowing what beauty is
Stay loving your mother when she brings home another blazer 3 sizes too big.
She's protecting you from the wolves that want your maturing innocence.

Stay naive to the little things
Like not knowing what infatuation is
And just being one of the mandem in your Adidas and messy braids.

I'd tell her she didn't need that navel piercing
And that all that confidence she has, she must never lose.
For 'no' will become the hardest word to say.

Use your humour. Use it to push your beliefs and words into action.
See those dreams you have?
They are visions
And when you fill that UCAS application out don't you dare forget what you're doing it for.

I'd tell her her worst enemies love her more than her closet allies
And that friends will come and go; you ain't growing if you don't lose some.

Stay living for today but do something that makes for a better tomorrow

Your curiosity is bittersweet.
It will bring you much pleasure and also much pain.
Pain you've never known and will never understand because you weren't ready and it will change you forever so please,

18 year old self, speak those dreams into existence.

Focus on your goals baby girl. 

These boys aren't going nowhere.

Cordial

I won't be bitter and act bougie when I see you
What's the point?
What's happened, happened so why stay fighting with the past

I'll still smile, say hello
How you doing? What's going on?
'Cause knowing we've grown from what went down it's nice to know you're doing well

Seriously.
It may come as a surprise not every female will hold a grudge
'Cause that with you showed me my worth and I know now it did me good.

Gave me a taste of pain and hurt so I'll appreciate a man
Who wants to give me the whole world and show me how to love myself

So thank you,
And bless you too
You pushed me closer to becoming perfect for a King.

Physically Conversing

Lord, those kisses on the back of my neck

already got my toes flexing, point, flex

And God, those circles you make with your fingertips, so gentle, so weirdly, gentle.

Every hair feels you, reacts, blooms upon your touch

Locked away from the world, why can't we stay just so, brown and just 

Oh, there you got me smiling again. I can't help it. 

Ms Jackson, you knew how I'd be feeling in this moment. Couldn't give an f if someone were to walk in, I want you now.

The way we're melting in these sheets, there'll be nothing left to see but the traces of our love making.

Oops. Did I just say love? That's not what we call it. 

But what else could this be if you don't have to be inside mine to feel it all over you. 

And could lust be that powerful? I don't think so. You have me physically and mentally in awe

It's not possible to go a day without this conversation. And it starts with ours hearts beating hello. 

Sure there are more reasons why this is wrong than the ones that burn inside me saying you're so right 

But mine are much stronger than any humans dictation. 

When we're together its our bodies conversing. Stopping our time with all our words. Time that's thick and smells like us.

You ask me something. I answered.

My breath. Your touch. My temperature. Your solidity.

Then soon comes the heated discussion that rips through us. 

Up and out in vocal exclamations till we reach an explosive agreement and you hold me there.

Slow down. Lets come to our senses. 

We both lost it. 

But we loved it.

And so we can't stop talking still.

Easy.

Easy.
That's what they call her.
Even though it's obvious she's not.
She'd have had the whole crew by now and labelled a washed up thot.

She's not 'loose' and shes not 'about'
Just tripped up with a couple niggas.
They knew she had a soft spot for them but she should have known better

Would you kiss her on the forehead and say "Okay" when she says
"Not now" cause you've tried it?
She doesn't wanna lose the chance of you being down for her
Thinks the only way now is to ride it

The last time she said, "If you like me, you'll wait,"
She still managed to get fucked over
And even though its been 7 months with her legs locked
Once again, a B.A.N. has ill-used her

Let Me Fool You

Let me fool you with my smile

So my unhappiness can hide.

Let me fool you with my humor

sheltering insecurities inside.

My body, let it trick you

so you wont know of the scars

that came from the misuse of it

from the times I let down my guard.

Body Count

...once they give her that look that melts her insides

and kiss her while touching between her thick thighs 

she loses just what it was she built up the courage to say

and lets down her guard thinking 'this one will stay'.